CyberCave

I helped my friend Josh today… He was an ungrateful jerk in the end… I still love him though.

I recently got over a major sinus cold… but it was much different than normal ones. I didn’t have a runny nose or any coughing, but had major congestion, headaches, and a really bad sore throat. My vision was blurry and hearing was horrible off and on. The funniest thing was that it slowly came on, intensified immensely over 12 hours, then vanished within a day. What the hell.

Other than that I’m much better all around. It doesn’t quite seem like day to day is a grind right now, but I still feel like I need a vacation (but who doesn’t feel that way). I have started opening myself up to others slowly, but still feel hesitant to let them in to my head. I flirt more now, it means nothing, but still feels nice to be able to do. I have a very good friend coming back to SD in just a few days, maybe that is exactly what I need to blowout and have a good time, forget all the shit that has happened lately. I’m sure it will be fun.

I love you BAM and miss you more than you’ll even know.

Things have been good lately for me, but I think I have finally obsorbed some bipolar traints from those around me.  I keep fluctuating from good to bad.  Once every 2 weeks or so I seem to get into a very deep state of depression.  I keep telling myself it will get better, and I’m sure it will, but for now it all hurts still.  What the hell have I done to myself.  It couldn’t have been worth it… could it?  I just need some vacation time with good friends to help me realign myself.  I’ve never had identity problems, I’ve always known who I was and what I’m about.  However, lately it seems like I must change.  What kind of a life is worth living when you question yourself?  I know what I stand for, but is it right.  These are the things in my head now… I want them out. 

I love you Brodie.

I’m in a bad place right now… My son moved and I can no longer see my baby… I will get through this. Here is one of my all time favorite quotes to help set my mood.

“Is This The Hill You Want To Die On?”
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I will be better on August 23rd… Then happier in March of 2011…

I am currently test driving the 5.0 OS for the BB Storm. I find that it flows very nice, but since it is a pre-release there are a few bugs. I’ve only had it a few hours, but will update very soon on my findings… Now I just have to remember to write them down.

I found an awesome free app while surfing my BlackBerry App ’store’ that uses free gps signal to track where the phone is.  All you have to do is register with the website and register your device key and ‘Viola’, it tracks your phone’s every movement.  I can think of many great uses for this including tracking children and lost phones, but it will suck for the cheating boyfriend/husband.

It is called InstaMapper GPS Tracker.  After registering services and your devices, you simply login to the website then watch the map track you.  You can do it either by trail tracking view (see where they have been and where they are), or see where they are at current time only.

I finally got far enough with my house that I was able to contact a Realtor and get it listed.  Big weight off my shoulders.  I was able to list it for a descent price considering all the upgrades and improvements I’ve done to it over the years (mainly past 2 months).

It is listed with ClearView Realty – Century 21

more to follow

I finally decided to switch to a web host since I no longer live at my house and do not have access to my computer and servers.  I decided to go with godaddy because I don’t believe I’ve ever heard anything bad about them, and they were offering a great deal on the beta data systems hosting plan.  I decided not to transfer anything from my old site as it was all meaningless bullshit and random rants anyways.

About a month ago, I resigned a contract with Verizon so I could get the BlackBerry Storm.  So far I love this phone, just a few software tweaks I would make if I were a developer (SMS text character limit of 160. not being able to record/play a lot of videos without errors), but the hardware is phenominal.  The auto focus camera takes the greatest quality of pictures I’ve ever seen on a phone (and form most digital cameras for that matter), the video camera isn’t bad either.

example of picture quality- picture of my son Brodie

Verizon’s EVDO network isn’t the fastest in SD, but still not too bad.  I might need to exchange in the phone on my insurance plan as I’ve already bashed this one up fairly bad within a month.  Switching from a smaller slider (LG Decoy) to the Storm takes some getting used to, and I tend to drop it.